to a certain bagpiper in Belgium who is cheating on his girlfriend and taking pictures of his friends to m********* when he is drunk
you are nice to everyone else, support them, encourage them, but you keep being abusive towards me. This occasional breadcrumbing and then silent treatment, neglect, barely acknowledging me as a human being…It makes me feel awful. I have always been supportive of you and worried about you, but I feel like im being punished for being good to you.
you lied again during winter. it is manipulative to frighten someone to the bone, threaten to do things, get them to panic and worry and shake in fear. do you know how upsetting it is for me that you do this? and then just disappear and ignore me for months. it is confusing as f*** and I feel like you do it on purpose. I havent done anything to you, why do you need to hurt me over and over
I cant change how you behave, and no matter what I say, you dont care how your manipulations affect me.
it is sad that I see people all leaving you not when the love is not mutual, but once it is. why do you make all people run away? because love from you is poison. you make people feel more alone with you in their life than when they are by themselves and happy. you destroy every happiness inside anyone who tries to care.
that said, I wish you healing. I hope you can man up and take responsibility for how traumatic your behavior is to people around you.
I had to f****** deal with PTSD because of you. I had nightmares about you. you attacked me in my dreams.
