I appreciate people contacting me, but I still dont feel connected in this world. I am very very lonely and it is not because I dont have friends. it is also not “nobody understands”. it is me, I dont feel connected to the world. I dont like being here, thats it. and I am also having a hard time becuase of mental abuse and emotional manipulation. I feel like I cant trust anybody, I cant talk to anybody, my granny is gone, I watched so many friends die, it is hard to be here and I havent touched anyone or received a hug since 2018. it feels like I am on a different planet from everyone else.