I don’t know why after all these years….I still have feelings for him. It never goes away no matter what I do. I’m now nineteen, yet I still feel the same way as I did when I met him at age nine. Is it love? Am I in love with him?….It’s almost infuriating how much this man has consumed my thoughts. I know he feels the same. I just know it. Why does he treat me differently than he does his other friends? I cant describe the feeling I get when I’m around him. It is so intense and overwhelming. We haven’t spoken in a year… but I have this gut feeling, when the time is right, he’s meant to be in my life forever.