My friends of the past do not know what I do these days. I guess we’ve lost touch and neither one of us cares to reach out. Strangers that know what I do are constantly trying to find a way to connect. I feel like I’m building walls, and I don’t like sharing much about myself with others because it changes how they treat and talk to me.
I am a kind person, and I give others the benefit of the doubt. In general, others feel pretty confident around me.
But once they know .. how much money I have, that I own multiple businesses and on top of that am a land lord.. they get kinda hush hush in their personality. It’s like they feel smaller. Money makes people change the way that they see you. So I’d rather not discuss finances with friends..
If we’re hanging out, I just want to relax(and not work because I’m there to socialize and release stress) I just want to play a game, have a drink, go out on the town, whatever. But don’t treat me like I’m someone you can’t relax around, someone that you have to impress. It honestly kinda breaks my heart.
I haven’t told a few people that are close to me about what I have because I fear how they will change. One of my ‘friends’ treats me pretty bad ngl, but he offers me great insight into things I don’t think about. I value his outlook. If he were to know how much money I have.. He’d flip. He’d treat me so differently. He’d prob kiss-a** and lie even more. I don’t want that. He should just keep being a d*** so I can continue to be a d*** back lol
Another friend found out about my money and she wants me to basically adopt her.. She’s always there for me and I worry that she see’s it as a chore. Feels like ‘everyone shut up and stop what you’re doing, SHES calling!’. But dude it’s just me. She won’t take care of her own things, she bends for me whenever I want because she hopes I will help her out more. But she is not my responsibility, and I am not her savior. She is just my friend that I want to be able to casually talk to. I want her to be her own person around me.
I’m starting to understand what it means to be lonely on the top. I still want to be on the top, that is not going to change but, why can’t people treat me like a person. I’ve always been looked at as a walking dollar sign. That’s why I don’t want to share too much.