It’s been a year now and I still feel slightly empty as if I’m missing something. I had a huge crush on my online friend named Alex. We don’t talk like we used to ever since an argument broke out between us. Now every night I’m stuck regretting and thinking about how much I want him. How bad I want to be his. It feels like I’m stuck drowning in a deep hole and all I can do is just sink until I’m content.
I’ll admit I tried to replace him with a girl but all my mind would be at is how bad I wanted to f*** her. At the end of the day she only wanted to be friends. She says she doesn’t know what we are. After that situation I thought I wouldn’t think about Alex but I still do.