I was in a group with my crush for an activity in Spanish class the other day and we were trying to come up with answers to a question quickly without alerting the other groups and he kinda whispered something really quietly in a gravely kinda growling voice and jesus h christ I’m so glad I was wearing a mask because I went BEET RED. I have major crushes on both him and his girlfriend I just want to be dating both of them at the same time every single time either of them text me to ask about like homework or play rehearsal I kick my feet and giggle like a f****** anime schoolgirl it’s ridiculous. Like she came up to me the other day and mentioned that she wanted to audition for the play im gonna be directing soon and obviously I said I’d send her the information because she’s amazing and kind and a great actress and honestly the perfect casting type for the female lead I may have a problem lol and that problem is called being lonely. The thing is neither of them is all that conventionally attractive or popular, like the guy is a total stick who talks like a game show host and has a whole segment on the school news network where he tells bad puns but I think he’s totally hot and absolutely hilarious, while my parents are under the impression that the girl looks like a horse and can’t sing (no clue where they’re getting that from, her voice is top tier and she’s absolutely gorgeous but I mean i guess she’s got pretty big front teeth? idk) and she talks a little too loud but I just…really like her ok? She’s super sweet and passionate about becoming a teacher and I’ll stop beating around the bush she has a really nice rack and her fashion sense is immaculate. I just really really like both of them but the thing is they seem really happy together and have a really close bond that I don’t want to get in the way of. Neither seems like they’re particularly interested in dating two people at once and even if they were I’d still be a third wheel because they know each other a lot better than either knows me; they’ve been in the same friend group for years and I’ve only been casual friends with them up until lately (I’ve also only known the girl for less than a year). Plus if they were to break up and I were to end up with one of them, that would probably make my friendship with the other one get awkward and I don’t want to do that because I value both of them as friends. Idk I just needed to write down my feelings somewhere.