I wish I had a boyfriend that was a true friend. Truth is I can’t talk to him about anything that scares me I cant go to him for any moral support. He hates to hear anything sad or negative.

I am facing another surgery , unexpected. I m facing more amputations and I have no one to lean on . I’m tired and scared and very alone .

I can’t tell him , because of his anxiety. I doubt he would care. He won’t visit . He won’t. It’s been all about him . His comfort level. I don’t matter, as long as I keep my mouth shut. He’s haopy.