Suicide isn’t the answer. I hope you know you aren’t alone. I also tried it. I was in an induced coma for 3 days. I survived it. My gratitude these days is overwhelming that truly its a miracle i lived. Oh its been 16 yrs since i almost died. It would be years till I would come to see i had a purpose in this life. My life truly isn’t my own. It never was. There is a higher power. Its really gonna be alright. I hope you find healing. Please don’t give up.