I always feel like i’m not good enough for everything. Whenever i saw quotes like “you deserve better”, i was just like “yuh-huh are you sure?”. Anything i’ve done is always invalidated by my parents, now i’m too tired of it and i don’t even care ‘cuz i don’t wanna try anymore 🙂 i have commitment issues ‘cuz i think when i’m getting closer with someone, they start knowing more about me and that makes my scared. Like my mom always makes me feel like i’m the most disgusting person and having too many flaws, she always said that i’m ugly and i have bad personalities or sth and that makes me hate myself even more when i realize all the things she said about me sound like she’s talking about herself. Idky but it makes me think i now become the person like she is and i hate it. Like i’ve been trying so much to not become a person like my mom and now i feel like i can’t because i live with her and i’m affected by it. I hate when i’m try to hurt people like what she was doing when someone didn’t please her. Now i’m quite scared of myself because i’m becoming the kind of person which i hate them most.