And you are probably right, I did see you as a dear old good friend. I needed one. I tossed out my old ones for one reason or another. I stand by that decision too btw.

But that was only for a while. Early on. Until I realized you were hopeless and probably not even capable of love, certainly not not with me. I could name incident after incident after incident of other men right there. Someone walked into your room and kissed you while you were talking to me on the phone. I hung up. Remember that? That was the first one.

So yeah. We were done in my mind even before that. I was just waiting for you to finally cut it and run right from the start.

The reason I never tried to get to know you is because I never believed you liked me that much. You were passive aggressively mean. Often. Just brutal. There are time you don’t think I know about, but I do. You were passive aggressively meaner than f*** to me. Brutal.You would literally rub my nose in s*** and laugh about it with other people. It was so bad and mean so many times, I actually questioned whether or not you were drunk every time we talked or saw each other. It was brutal. So I’m not going to try to get to know you then. I didn’t really care. Inbar mentally given up and was waiting for the inevitable. I tried to change myself in a few ways leading up to the inevitable, but in hindsight, I was done long before that. It didn’t make any difference for our relationship. It was done when it started.

The difference between me then and now is I just don’t f*** with people who are clearly wrong for me and me for them. I don’t allow it to go anywhere. I immediately write it off. I never want to repeat what happened with us. I am always right about people and our compatibility. I knew it then too I ignored it or looked past it.

If I didn’t like your brunette hair, I actually DID like it, a lot, but I knew it wasn’t for me. It was actually a minor change that signified the end of us to me. As a matter of fact, I think you told me someone thought it was s***. So that’s what that was. I actually prefer brunettes.