I have family and friends that i trust..but why do I feel alone, empty, sad and also pathetic? To be honest i really want someone who can truly understand me and listen to my problem. I don’t expect you to reply or find any solution to my problem tho i just want you to listen and yet I can’t find anybody. I always pretend to be the person who doesn’t have any problem in life where I just don’t give any s*** about anything when the truth is otherwise and i hate myself for it…i just hate myself and sometimesi find myself wondering why should i live in a world that where nobody give a s***….. I have a small group friend tbh and they are not toxic but still i felt alone i don’t know if it’s because i push them aside or they just didn’t care? i am going through a lot to be honest but i still faking my mental health where actually i barely survive to live. Even I don’t know what the hell is wrong with me.. I felt very burden by something that i’m not sure maybe it is because I kept all my problem alone for too long ??? hm whatever i”m just going to s*** everything up by myself..not like i’m not used to it duh