In fact, I definitely need to get out of there.

That’s one tactic I use when it comes to d along with the turds. I’m over it. Her. I am really done with it, I think she’s dangerous, she’s crazy, I would never trust her true intentions. I accepted anoint time ago, it was personally my first step in letting go of it, accepting that it’s just not going to happen, too many things that I can’t get past are in the way, among them, things like new relationships she fell into, by that time they were longer and deeper than what we had, so I’m out that way, it’s done, there could be things like marriage, possibly children, on top of the pretty nasty shitnshit did pull on me, people don’t treat people they “love” like that, do those kinds of things, I had to give up. I couldn’t keep waiting. So I accepted it, I let go of everything. I went in a totally different job direction, I lovednit and hated it, but she found a few scan pickers there too, which I didn’t know about until I left

My point beg me all that ∆∆∆ right there is to me that’s the best way to deal with people like that when it comes to her. Flying monkeys. People she uses to pick scabs and get the low down. I leave. And I know that it all has to do with her, me, and her desperation to keep it on some level. I don’t communicate with her personally, and when I quit that, 9 years ago, all it was doing was sucking me dry to exhaustion and not replenishing everything. It’s was killing me, but you better believe she loved every minute. It kept her alive and content. So when I took that away, rightfully so, you need to give to receive, you better believe it fucked her up. I would go so far as to say, to this day, 9 years later, she never got any better.

Gets in with them, they WERE toxic, but you know what? I don’t care, I’m not here to make buds, I have thought to skin, who cares? So I deal with it, until I can’t stand it any more, 4 and a half years, and I quit. When I did that though, that deems those people almost useless. They have no use and things are not the same. They were being used.

This new guy, he’s been doing this since we met 3 years ago, often. I usually just brush it off, and ignore it. It has nothing to do with my age, Jesus Christ look at me…. I know what it’s about and I know there more than one connection. Yesterday, just pissed me off. It’s like how many times are you gonna be an irritating t***? Something’s up there, it seems there too much of a connection. I does t bother me if I need to be around people she knows or knew, that’s fine, I don’t want to be around anyone who is clearly obviously way to interested enough to push thah that button. Something’s going on there, and it’s too close for me. I don’t like the guy (what else is knew) and it has nothing to do with this, he’s unlikeable in my opinion, to my taste. Not just mine, but to mine for sure. He’s not cool. I would not want to be in a band with him, to say the least. Putting this spin on it, he put the spin on it actually, I can’t be around this guy.

That’s the difference from me and the turds. The turds latch on to me, I’m minding my own business, I’m in my own world, they know who I am to her and for some reason they want to be close to me. They don’t like me either, they know, I don’t like them, but they still seem to want to keep me there rather than avoid me like the plague. They want to be around me, knowing. I can’t imagine me thinking that way. I don’t want ANYTHING to do with her or anyone she knows. We are not each other’s kind of people by default. Complete opposite and I’m intolerant. I don’t want to be around that s***. I’m outta this place as soon as possible. I can only hope that if it’s me being there keeping them cool, me leaving will ruin it 🙂