A guy I’m FBF with won’t stop talking about how much he thinks about me. I feel bad that I don’t feel the same but he’s said he doesn’t mind. He’s just a chill down to earth guy. I wish I was attracted to him but I’m just really super not and because of that, I don’t really think about him much at all. We’re friends but he always brings the convo back to s** and being h**** so I often feel like I can’t really talk to him very much. Like I don’t know how to direct the conversation into any discussion topics before he’s already bringing it back around to how he’s h****. The convo always stops when he drops that in because I just don’t know what to say to that? Like cool, yeah, I know, but I’m not h**** atm, so what are we supposed to do? What do you think will come from telling me for the 10th time that you’re thinking about s** again? It adds nothing to the conversation and is so jarring that it derails everything. This is one of the reasons why I often feel like we can’t even be that much of friends. But he’s adamant we are and that he wants to “be there for me”. Like, how, my guy? I can’t even talk to you for 5 minutes before you start talking about s***** stuff and I’m just not about it.

I don’t even know why I’m writing this. I just.. wanted to get it off my chest.
I wish he could find someone who matches his h**** levels because it soooo isn’t me. But when I AM down, he goes crazy for it, and he’s not a bad lay himself so I go with it. I just wish we were more compatible so all these inbetween moments wouldn’t be so awkward.