I used to like a boy for a long time but never made a move. After some time, he got another girlfriend. I was really sad that time but continued to hide my feelings. Some of my friends knew about it and kept silent about it. Later a boy confessed to me and I accepted(maybe I wanted to make one or forget him). His feelings were genuine and he was shy that time. I’ve tried to let go of my crush and move on but I couldn’t because he always appeared like sunshine in my world. I tried to move on and started liking my ex boyfriend but then dunno why I felt so chocked with those feelings and everything around me. We broke up in bad terms. Sometimes I think about how I should’ve treated him better or if I could go back to the time I’d not accept his feeling or treat him better. Anyways I don’t want to patch up with him though. Nowadays, I can’t see myself being in love or having somebody. I may envy couples but I don’t want to be in relationship now.