I love you kid . I always will . And no you are not forced to be my friend. But thank you for the constant reminder.
I am sad this was supposed to be the weekend, and there I can do really do fix that . Now or in the future . I’m just not someone people want to see, hear from or have around . No clue what to do as it is a basic human need to have some degree of love or companionship . But I get the answer is not you. You asked I not call again and I won’t . There’s just nothing to let go to , and no way out either . It’s not normal to live like this and I don’t want to anymore . Your constant reminder does nothing but frustrate me because I wouldn’t be here, I wouldn’t be alive period if there was some feasible way out .
You are not being forced care, be my friend , see me or give closure. I just want you to have a good birthday like you planned 🙂 a good life . I’m done trying . And I sure as hell don’t want you to pretend anymore then disappear . I just want out . I don’t care about anything but an end to my suffering . No one should have to live like this .