It’s all true though. Its nothing new to me, like I said, its real. It’s confidence. Its me as far back as I’m aware of anything. I’m not saying it’s all me, I was shaped into what I am, early. I was nudged into certain directions, I developed my own taste, I also watched and soaked things in, I was influenced by the types of people, men and women, early on, I look at people who see it happem naturally with me, I dont try, I am who I am, I am also confident, and when I “capture” someone, like a woman, if it turns out to click in some way, she is never forgetting it. I’m there for life and when I cross the paths of people who see this, other guys, they see it, or they want something that WAS mine, I might not even know they want it, I don’t care, it’s the past, Im not even thinking about it, but they can’t hit it at the level I did no matter what they do and it sometimes pisses them off. I have no idea what’s going on and they resent it amd they’re jealous of it, and without knowing it even going on they’re hostile. Which kimd of pisses me off. It’s like being in a competition that you have no idea you are in and you dont even care about “the prize” so its a bit irritating, and I will usually try to distance myself from it, but all it does is bring me back to thinking, because I do, not everyone has the taste to shape themselves into a person, a man who has that kind of a grip on women.

Some people look at me like as if its an act. The “cool” is an act, its just a matter of having good taste in everything from the way you handle yourself, to how hard you try or don’t, to the way that you react, to the way you dress, looks, likes/dislikes, how intelligent you are (for real, you can tell tbis in a person, quickly) and standing by it. Be real, know what’s good, and have good taste, but I look at these people, and yeah they irritate me, but I also know they probably never had quality influence helping to steer them in the right direction early, giving them a chance to develop good taste.

Some of these guys, they’re real dorks…. real f****** dorks, aside fro. The pocket book, ZERO s** appeal, can grow up, make 6 figures and no matter what wrangle up a keeper based on that, but it’s not even real. They likely know this, but some guys need that trophy on the arm because its good for business, they know their deficiencies, just the same as I do, me turning down some women might even me just being honest, I dont think I have what she really needs, I’m not perfect, even of I’m “attractive” in my ways at a glance, they know their deficiencies, but if they can buy it, well that’s just how its gonna be, but I can guarantee you these guys don’t know what its like to have a good woman literally flipping themselves and you upside down because she really likes you. For one reason or another. Truly. That’s all I’m saying. Nothing new to me. I guess I should be gratefull and I do appreciate it, but like I said I’m just not interested for one reason or another. I need to feel sometbing immediately, amd if I don’t its not what I need or want. It’s nothing against her, she could even be too good for me, it’s just not what I need right now.

I dont even try. That’s my point. Maybe I feel I need to concentrate on other things at this point in my life and I need to do it alone? I cant afford any mental? Last time I felt that way was my early 20’s, I came out of it. Maybe I’m in that groove now, again. At least Im honest. I’m not even rude.