Could we talk before you go again? I shouldn’t have pushed the issue about hanging out again. Its just been so long since we saw each other and ive gotten to do anything fun, and I really did miss you. You were my favorite person, but no I did not want to kiss or f***. I knew those feelings were not shared. I just wanted your company, to spend time with you. Maybe a hug or platonic cuddle but that was absolutely it. Its hard being alone every day and with my back, and I didn’t mean to be mean or hurt your feelings this morning. I do like hearing from you. I just feel sad I won’t be seeing you anytime soon. That doesn’t mean I hate you though, and I really do want you to have a fun birthday even if its without me

I acted like a spoiled brat this morning and im sorry. I did not mean what I said. Just because you may not want to do something, I really still would like to talk . I love you so much and unconditionally and want you in my life. I just have to lower my expectations I guess a little. Rather than run again please if you care at all, lets try to talk about this and try to find some common ground. Compromise is possible and so is a friendship I think with a little effort. I won’t take away from you new person(s) I promise. I just dont want to lose you again over something stupid . I appreciate you in my life.

This is not a guilt trip, you do you with your people and plans. We can just let it go. I really would still love to talk. Maybe if I wasn’t so attached it would work better. I really do love you. Please call me.