I love you . I know I’m the last person you probably want to hear from, but it really does make me happy you’re doing okay now . If I ran out of time to reach out I’m sorry . I wish we could have and I miss you more than anything . Talking to you always made my day . I know you have other people and things going on your life now and there’s probably no time or room. And I really don’t mean to bother or burden you. I love you very much and I’m sorry for what happened and I would still miss you even if my life was full of people and wonderful things. I know I would still feel the same. I know you don’t really have anything good to say or think at this point about me or to me but I hope at some point You can’t find forgiveness for me ; it’s hard to think I’m nothing but a monster in your eyes, or something pathetic and horrible. But I guess it is what it is. I hope you’re not upset that I reached out was a message I really didn’t want to make an honest attempt to talk to you. I miss you so much. I’m writing here now so I don’t call you. I think the world of you and I just I think nothing and hope for nothing but good things in your life. You meant the world to mine I have to stop now so I don’t cry but I hope you have a wonderful day