I said I’d get off this app bc I thought I was ready to stop letting things out but it’s a little tougher now, j missing stuff a little but then I am reminded that u probably messing around w other people giving ur attention to them and so it helps me go on thinking abt that stuff. U usually think abt me either early mornings or late nights. I’m j a thought in the back of ur head which is okay bc we supposed to go on but it j sometimes gets to me. I had fun at the petty today, I felt lonely at first bc I didn’t know that many people but I talked to everyone eventually and had fun, my mom let me stay out till 11 so I think she’s becoming more chill w me. Overall today was fun-ish. But again I come home to my bed stuck thinking abt me and u. I can’t wait for the day when I get in bed and think abt just me. Just me and my goals and future. I’m sick of thinking abt the hurt and memories and my past in bed. I j wanna skip it all and get to the point where I finally can do things normally without thinking abt u at random times