if that is you know who, I still don’t know, I’m looking at the guy and yeah it’s a possibility he is, you should tell him to give me your contacts.

I would straight up ask him, I don’t even know him, but if he is, I respect and I would say “give this to her…” but you know, how do I know what you’re doing and where you are?

You need to understand with me, I’ve been through some s*** with women, and the problem is I am not stupid. You know how I feel about you, things don’t change, I might lose some hope, and that s****, but that’s life right? Unfortunately. Maybe you’re happy where you are in life with whoever. But I know you also have strong feeling for me too 🙂 My little b****** self got you hooked on my adoration 🙂 and those feelings could even be stronger than I realized, and maybe you did a few things to kick my a** and I didn’t see it, or realize it. Now, honestly, I can forgive you for things that may have hurt me, even if they hurt me really badly because I know there is something special about me to you, but at the same time, all you, YOU IN PARTICULAR ever had to do at any time, was just reach out to me. I’ve had to deal with separation and this kind of s*** at a young age, right? You know that? How do you think it felt to me knowing it was no more, then? I wasn’t going to see you again in the near future, I never gave up hope for the first number of years. The last time those years later was like a dream I forgot about and it was better than I imagined. All you ever had to do, especially if you knew I was in some hurt was reach out. Snap me out of it. I never saw you. Maybe I did, and asked you if we knew each other and what did you say. I had to think about that one after I closed up and when it hit me “wait a minute…” it was too late. We would be in great shape in a number of ways now, I think. You could have stopped that s*** from eating my brain. We could have used each other

But I guess that’s my point, I don’t know, maybe you’re completely innocent, but you and she (you know who I’m talking about) kicked my a** mentally. I was kind of like a cornered animal at that time, I might have hurt a few people, maybe even some I didn’t want to, but it hurt me pretty badly too and all you had to do was just say “hey…”

Really though how could I not forgive you if you did pull some s*** like that? I wouldn’t believe it was malicious, it would’ve been because maybe I wasn’t looking or thinking about you, and you were being a typical girl, and my mind was on something less healthy…. which you should have reached out and saved me from.