I had no right to even get upset when I saw she was leaving again, actually. I can’t even say she left for something better because the truth is she wasn’t even “my” friend (or my anything) to begin with . She came back out of some mixture probably of desperation and pity . Maybe even a kindness who knows, so really I had no right to expect anything . Sadly that’s the truth .

Dunno my parents can’t understand why i remain si severely depressed and suicidal despite shitloads Of therapy and medication …can you ? I mean if you were me wouldn’t you be suicidal ?