She has weird envy of me because my family had more money then hers and I think because supposedly I’m pretty . In her mind I don’t deserve all the riches god gave me . Oh yeah so many blessings. Its awesome to have every man want to sleep with you but not be wanted by a single woman. Its feels fabulous to be aline day after day or to settle for someone you don’t really even love. Yeah great feeling . To be a hallway to a PhD and underemployed . Wow awesome . To be mentally Ill beyond repair . Bingo ! Jackpot . My life is awesome ! Oh wait let’s not forget the parents who could care less if I lived I’d died, being alone for every holiday and all the awesome physical, mental and s***** abuse endured my entire life starting from childhood lucky me !!!