So I ran into my ex today, and we actually talked for about 20 minutes. She’s no longer with the girl she left me for and now she’s onto another one… But she’s cheating on the new one if you can believe that. It was a pleasant conversation and nice to feel like things are OK. Of course we’re not getting back together and we’re not friends but it was still nice to make peace . I sure wish that was possible with my ex BFF. I know she doesn’t want to be my friend, or stay in touch with each other… But if she truly feels as traumatized as I do buy the whole thing it really would’ve been nice to of had an adult discussion. For some reason however, she lives in tear that by having that one phone call she will invite me back into her life. There’s nothing I can do to change that belief but I can tell you at this point it’s certainly not true. I pretty much accept how she feels . If anything I think the whole friendship came about merely because she felt sorry for me that I was alone, and wanted to feel like she was doing something nice for someone by being their friend…And sadly I attached my cell from there. I don’t think she thought that was going to happen, nor would she have been my friend otherwise. I don’t blame her because I think she tried to do a good thing, also it’s my fault too for letting it be known that I was in such a desperate and pathetic situation… Basically I brought the pity on myself. In any case I sure wish it was possible for us both to talk and have some kind of closure. Not a friendship I’ve given up on that and I realize that’s not something she wants. I even except it’s a friendship that never would’ve happened had she not felt so sorry for me. Still the conversation I had with my ex today makes me sad because I don’t think it would ever be possible to have that with her. I wish it was though I think it would make it a lot easier to move forward. Anyway I don’t know why I’m even rambling now but I hope everybody had a good day