I will kill myself eventually, down the road if something doeant kill me first.

I know that. Not out of depression or anything like tha but when I am too old to do anything and I am alome, because I will be alone, I’ll kill myself. I know that. I think about that a lot lately. It’ll be more like just an easy way out of a life that that could be worse, but actually sucked pretty bad right from the start when I think about it. Its not so bad to me I’m used to it, but someone from the outside if theey knew the scope and saw everything would see it as a terrible life. A weaker person might have killed themselves long ago.