I got used to being alone . That’s what’s I don’t understand, I haven’t asked her for any support in at least 6 months . I handle everything myself, even if I’m lonely I scream it out by myself . I only wanted to be a support to her . Because I know how it feels . I never asked or expected that back . I just didn’t want her to hurt .

Its bad enough I have to accept the isolation but Am I really that much of a monster no one could ever want what I could give ?

I miss her so much , I actually have panic attacks and there’s nothing I can do . No one wants to hear from me .
How am I am supposed to live like this ? No one cares
I’m sorry to be here I just don’t know what to do with it
Sometimes I just pray to god to die it’s so bad . I meant well I just wanted to be there for someone else . I gave up on myself . Please god let me die. Its too much

I miss her everyday .