I promise I’ll run and block everything . Disappear . I understand you’re not someone I can reach out to even once in a while . You just don’t like me . It’s ok . I realize maybe this wasn’t real but it was to me . I know talking to me is the last thing on earth you’d want please as an act of charity is peace possible ? I don’t want nightmares anymore . I don’t want to be somewhere I don’t belong . I’m just stuck . I want to please you and be your friend so badly but that’s unfair to you if you don’t want to be mine . I just don’t know what else to do