Im sorry again for calling to check up on you. And texting. It tooks weeks to even try. I meant well. I really did want to talk. Im not even angry. I wanted to apologize. Im sorry. I just forget how much you hate me. At least I tried. I wish it was possible even once in a while to catch up. I guess my fuckup was permanent .I didnt realize how much you hated talking to me. I really try to save it though. for over a month. Ive tried so hard to please you. Nothing was ever enough. I just wish it was possible to say goodbye. I really do accept there cant be a friendship.