I’m a63 year old male and I have always had feelings of bisexuality I don’t find men attractive at all but I love the male p**** I have always wanted to perform oral on a man and want him to do me analy I have a very feminine side I love women’s bras and p****** and lingerie I have never acted on my feelings but won’t let myself go through with it but when I m********* I always do it to the same fantasy i tried sucking myself off it took a long time and came in stages I got very good at it and I love how it felt in my mouth and how it smells the male p**** turns me on so much and trust me I love everything about a woman I don’t understand this and have tried to stop these feelings but I can’t I didn’t choose or want this I think I should just accept it but I can’t if you met me you would never know thanks you for listening