I feel so selfish. I want her to say yes come back to california this weekend. And I would go. But her buying the ticket makes me nervous cause it’s so expensive. She said she was ok with it but we havent talked about it since I told her I had the days off and I dont want to assume she still wants to do that. I miss her so much but it feels selfish to press for an answer on if I’m coming or not. But if she changed her mind I just want answer on that too. I know she is probably busy or asleep and that’s why she hasn’t answered yet but it’s making my anxiety brain go crazy. I am trying to control my reaction and not message her again but if I dont hear a yes or no by Thursday it’s obviously a no and I will be sad she didnt just say that.