if you loved me I don’t think that we would only be able to communicate on this board but thanks For the kind words. You probably have me mixed up with somebody else. Mine would be more than happy to see me choke on my own blood.

Just tired of this yeah I have a friend or two I can call once I pull myself together calm down and put a big fat f****** smile on my face I don’t have family my parents f****** hang up on me if I try to even like bother them for anything. I know I’m really not in the mood to like you know go troll for a buddy on the Internet to send me messages it’s just times like this it makes it really hard having like no human contact. Just I can’t do it anymore I can’t do it it’s just the BPD will not allow me to have a normal life I just I’m tired I’m done I can’t

Everything’s fine I’m not going to bother anybody that’s why am posting here nobody’s going to see it thank you guys for your kind input though