Your hug made me feel so safe your comforting words Even a phone call with such a huge difference in my life don’t ever know you made me feel likeeverything was ok, was going to be okay . I really wanted to be your friend your best friend actually I hate that I still think of you as mine even though I’ve made other friends it’s different is long as I don’t get attached to people I’m good I’m gravy . You made me feel like I wasn’t alone and this year I was looking at this woman who was so strong and beautiful and smart And very borderline like me and for whatever it’s worth for the first time in my life I actually felt like it was OK I was OK being like this was OK… Because you made it that way I really do miss you and I know you’re never going to see this I’m never gonna talk to me again so I don’t h I really do miss you and I know you’re never going to see this never going to talk to me again That’s OK too, I’m just thankful I have somewhere to post hoping eventually the feelings will dissipate I really don’t want to replace you with somebody else I don’t want a new FP, I’m tired of running I wish we could fix things I miss my best friend I’m never going to have a wedding maybe at least you could have a nice one I’m sad I won’t be around to help you plan it . I’m sad that you won’t be a part of my child’s life. Sorry I’m just to all of you I’m just going on and on maybe it’s the pregnancy hormones kicking my a**