You look so happy and beautiful in the picture with your child today. I can see such blissful joy radiating from you.

Writing down my thoughts is a lot more constructive and therapeutic. Maybe i shall let you have read. What a waste if no one reads it : )

in the short 3 months .. i felt bliss, joy,love, excitement, jealousy, greed, heartbreak, tears… fortunately zero anger, zero regrets currently

Recently i have a lot more wants or maybe they are wants that become needs

I want to hear your story – know a little only
I want to hear your dreams –
I want to hear your likes
I want to hear your worries
I want to hear you sing
I want to hear you scream : )
I want to see you swim
I want to see you wash clothes haha
I want to see you bath
I want to hold you in public
I want to bring you to meet my friends
i want to meet your friends
I want ……………………………………………………………….too many
too many dreams and fantasies. Maybe we treasure things that we can’t have more..

Sounds crazy but I would accept Christ just for you(yes it is wrong)

You have said
I have only one ____ you have only one _____

How do we give our all without holding back ..without hurting anyone ..without things getting out of hand. How can i segregate my feelings distinctly into weekdays vs weekends?

you said you are selfish and gullible.. i am too : )

feel better already typing it all out : )
Also alot more logical now

I have many times wanted to do what I thought was best for you. Being selfish I did the opposite. .. hey at least i thought about it … it is the thought that counts : )

i have also promised no more unilateral decisions from me. Love you too much to do that .

never knew typing your feelings out can be so therapeutic !