These recent weeks have been mentally and emotionally hard for me, I get so paranoid of people and what they think of me. Sometimes if I’m listening hard enough, I hear my classmates whisper behind me, and I’m always afraid it’s something about me. I keep on almost breaking down in the middle of class. I’ve been having a lot of suicidal thoughts lately too, vividly thinking of killing myself on April 12th (changed my mind) or just planning to hack away at my limbs. Maybe it’s just that weird phase everyone gets, or maybe it’s just the call of the void.