I’m pretty sure I’m asexual??? Just hear me out.
Why would someone want to have sex with someone who they find physically attractive but never want to know personally? Why fantasize?
Sexual attraction and talk of sex makes me uncomfortable in general and I’m not looking to be in a relationship, be it romantically or sexually. If I find someone attractive, it’s usually their aesthetic appearance or their personality that attracts me. But even that’s a more of a curious “I want to get to know you as a person” feeling.
I masturbate, sure, but I don’t fantasize about anything in particular. Just feeling excited and getting it done is my goal.
I hate when my mother asks me questions like “Is there a boy you like at school?” because that almost always implies dating and intimacy and marriage and sex and ugh. It makes me sick and I brush it off by saying “I’m not interested in anyone right now.” What is she gonna do, take me to a doctor and tell them to fix me because I find sex gross?
I think romantic relationships are cute and can be extremely meaningful to a couple but I can’t see myself in a relationship like that. How would it work? I’m clueless.
Hook up culture disgusts me despite being completely surrounded by it right now as a college freshman. How can you just give your body up to someone for the night and drop them like you never knew each other?
That was a huge rant but I needed to get it off my chest. I’ve always known something was “off” about me despite being physically attractive enough to date and hook up. Am I asexual?

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