I, as a human being. Have somehow loss the feeling of being social. I’m regularly anti-social, but this feeling is an all time low. Never before have I felt so secluded from the other humans. I, myself, am to blame on this part, but I do not understand. I never want to talk to people anymore, I don’t like playing games with other people, or carrying a long conversation and I usually shift my eyes and ears to something outward of the conversation. I’m feeling very disconnected from the world and I don’t know why. It suddenly happened and now anyone who spams me game invites just gets blocked, instead of me joining like usual. It’s really weird. I’m typically a person to be cheerful and mysterious, but now I just feel dark and alone. Not the type of alone where it’s sad, but the type where you just don’t feel like talking to people as it is. I’m fine with no one talking with me right now, which is weird. I previously wanted to change my outlook (since I am an introvert) so that I could be more social and accept people for who they are… However, everything seems to gone to waste. Gone are the days of me dreaming to get a girlfriend. Gone are the days where I check on my community for quality chats. Gone are the days where I will hold a conversation without being distracted. It feels like I’ve withdrawn from the entire world, yet I am still here. This is both a fascinating and odd feeling.