Is this a confession?

I don’t know, maybe it is.

On March 3rd I turn 49 years old which brings me to only 1 year away from my 50th Birthday. Holy s***, I’m almost there at the 50th mark! For some people it’s not a big deal but after losing several lifelong friends recently to strokes, heart attacks, and cancer I was in a deep depression for a while.

Having health issues of my own also added a strain to my mental state as I often wondered to myself “how did I get to this very dark place in my life?” But time and patience has been kind enough to let me process it all and put everything into perspective and make changes in my daily routine.

Instead of staying locked up in my home office, I started taking walks which led to me meeting neighbors I never knew existed. Those walks also made me familiar with my neighborhood in ways I haven’t considered before. The trees, bushes, lawns, and plants transcended from insignificant backgrounds to important landmarks for me.

The sky no longer is an indicator of should I wear a hat and jacket anymore, it’s now a projection of my inner passions and peace of mind. I also began to make time for stretching and meditation which I hope will add volume to my wellness as I approach my 50th year of birth.

My message to you is let go of fear, hate, anger and hurt, because it will rot your soul and destroy you from within. We all need to understand that love, compassion, understanding and wellbeing is the answer to life’s challenges.