Since my dad passed away I’ve been depressed and in these past few years it’s begun eating away at me. It’s now to the point where I’m considering suicide in a daily basis, but ignore it. Now it’s started making me unable to get things done. Not to mention because of it I see the worse in everything, and it’s why I can’t keep a relasonship for long.
I’ve only cut my wrist once, and it was only deep enough to draw some blood. Now I find myself holding a knife to to my stomach every day. I want to just start stabbing myself until I no longer am able to and just bleed to death from the stab wounds.
I’ve never believed in a God of any similar deity, despite my most of my family being Christians.
I’m unsure how much longer I can keep going through the circle before I cave in and get it over with.