Oh gosh, what do I do? I thought I was over being in love with her. I’ve been in love with my best friend for YEARS, and she said us getting together is a possibility someday, but she wanted to wait until at least after she got her masters degree.

I couldn’t handle waiting so long, so I managed to convince myself that i’m fine just being friends, that I don’t feel that way about her anymore.

But last night I made a joke, and she laughed and told me that she loves me. Later on she made another joke about how my therapist called me out that my best friend and I liked each other— not just that I like my best friend, but that *we* like *each other*.

Oh guys, I had to take a minute just to breathe. I could feel my cheeks flushing, I felt the butterflies, I wanted to squeel. I’m so hopelessly in love with this girl, aren’t I? And here I thought I’d be able to leave her as a friend and find a man to date and live the life society wants me to.

I’m so hopelessly head over heels in love with her, she is the bar that I set when looking for other people. Can i really wait five years before dating her becomes an option that’s on the table? I’ve waited five months since confessing, and it already feels like waiting an eternity