I’m so confusing and hate the fact that nobody literally understands me it s**** im so depressed about it cause I have no one. I grew into this weird complicated set of mind and it’s way to powerful for my age it’s destroying all the fun. I’m not like other teens, even tho I wish. I’m like that one person who separates the music to listen to background noise of a song to feel it better, make every beat rise in my blood to give me goosebumps (that’s honestly what gives me energy) while I to that I love starting into the wall and just not thinking letting the music in so I could sink they my body starts feeling numb so I could not feel alive I just feel the vibe. Yet if any teen reads this is gonna think that I’m f****** wack. I’m really awkward it s**** A**. Can’t f****** speak or making a simple conversation without remembering it and regretting it later. Like talking to a cahier or getting a spoon from a restaurant or asking for my size at a clothing store. It’s effects me so much is this normal for a 15 year old ? Please tell me I really wanna change I don’t want music to be my only best friend. -M.A.G.H.B