I’m married for 18 years. 3 kids. My wife is a great person, great mother, good in bed and nice-looking. She’s a bit assertive, borderline rude sometimes, but other than that I love her very much.

Every few years I get attracted to random women: co-worker first (15 years ago?), then a person we go together to fitness classes.. then finally – a random stripper performing a lap dance on me.

Let’s say I haven’t cheated in my wife in a physical sense of it, there was no “s**” with those other women, but there were relationships: petting, feeling “in-love”, wanting s**, etc.

I feel like I’m a failure. Not sure how to explain this, but despite the fact that I’m a good husband and a good father, I feel bad that I am so easily getting infatuated with other random women, who appear more s******* appealing to me…

Kill me now.