I’m immature, not ready, not adult, even at the age of 40. I dont feel like a self-standing human – i’m just worrying, stressed, afraid and going with the flow. Myself, i dont know what to do, i’m never ready to take responsibility, i dont even know why i should take that responsibility. Dreaming all the time, living a fictious life where i decide, succeed and reach the goals – but in fact i’m only driven by fear and the opinion of others about me. I just hate my unfinished self.