So I posted something a while ago. And I said I was doubting my Mormon beliefs.
Today one of my leaders called me and said I should repent for not going to church. Told me I was not a good example for the YM in my ward, and he said that I, as a RM, need to be an example of how members should be and to remember my covenants, basically I think I stopped feeling the Christ-like love we profess. It was my first time not going to church. And I feel like I had a better Sunday.
Maybe Heavenly Father will love me even if I distance myself from the church for a while. Who knows, right?