ive been with a lot of guys but i think im a lesbian. i told my parents i was when i was little, multiple times over the years, until i was assaulted and i just kind of forgot about it for a long time completely. and i always been obsessed with my best friends, and never liked s** much. but i feel like i cant be gay because ive slept with so many guys. that isnt something id apply to other people, but i cant get rid of that feeling towards myself. please, any other lesbians /gay people had much straight s** before realizing fully? i feel like i have to move countries before i can be comfortable telling people i think im gay. everyone knows ive dated / slept with men i feel like theyll laugh at me and no girls will want to date me.