My friend was s******* molested by his female babysitter as a young boy. When he told me about it I expressed my sympathy for him but secretly I was jealous. I had so many fantasies about my female babysitters I wished my babysitter would have wanted to be s***** with me. Obviously the fantasy is probably different from the reality but I can’t help but feel this way. I also get envious of all these teenage boys who end up having s** with their teachers, I had some really hot teachers who I would have given anything to have s** with. I knew from a young age that i liked girls and often had s***** thoughts about them. I was not s******* abused in any way though.