Growing up reading romance book and saw almost perfect book boyfriends/husbands everywhere, I think I sorta have a certain standard in men. People say I’m just choosey but I believe I’m just still looking for the Mr. Right Guy. I would be lying if I say I don’t see men because of their look and I honestly think personality would win over looks all the time. Yet I haven’t managed to find anyone. My kryptonite would be tall fit men with beard. I guess what they call as the lumberjack looks? But not necessarily that look though. Men with facial hair like goatee, I guess, but tall and caucasian because I love the different color of eyes as compared to dark brown eyes. Being Asian, there is no such thing nearly as the lumberjack type of men here.

Is it weird if I wanna go abroad just to find those type of men that fit my description? I don’t think they ever look my way because I’m not that attractive. I consider myself fat with 161 lbs and 5’1. I have small face so people would brush me off if I said I’m fat but I really am!

I will probably move to South Korea for grad school but there are no chance I will find my Mr. Right there but who knows. I think I’m desperate to get married as I want to show my parents they will not be sad when they leave this world as I have the love of my life with me. My parents are getting older and sometimes I’m afraid they would leave me without seeing I’m happy with the choice I made.

To my Mr. Right, may our path crossed. No matter where you are.

To everybody who reads, thank you for reading. This is my deepest secret that I am afraid to tell anyone and I don’t even know why I write this in the first place.