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I’m useless. Unwanted. Weird. Ugly. Fat.
I’m so upset right now that I can’t even cry. I just… Sit here. I listen to music and just stare into space. I want to cry and get it all out but i can’t. I’ve been going out partying a lot just to forget. I’ve been starving myself and might eat once a day… If that… I walk around late at night hoping someone kidnaps me and…. I don’t deserve to live a good life… I don’t deserve to live. If everyone in the world could be happy only if that met that one person in this world would have to take all the pain, I’d volunteer to be that person. Everyone else deserves to be smiling and happy all the time. It’s only right. They deserve it all. I don’t deserve even an ounce of kindness. I’m afraid of it. I’m scared to death of being happy. I’d rather stay in my comfort zone… But if i don’t deserve anything, wouldn’t that leave me with nothing….. I’m okay with just dying of a horrible sickness. I’m okay with dying of a broken heart… I’m okay with it all. Someone please help me, though i don’t deserve it. I’m suffering… I’ll be forgotten right after my death. People will forgot that i was too….. Just a human.

New Confession

One of my mom’s sisters came down to visit her and my mom had a doctor’s appointment and she laughed and my aunt came into my bedroom and she started telling me about her catching her husband with the daughter and I said are you kidding me she said no and so I asked her well what are you going to do about something like that she says well I want to get back at at him for doing that and my daughter I wanted you know get back at them for doing that and I said do they know that you know she goes yeah I walked right in on them right when he was coming inside of her and I said really she goes yes and she said that’s kind of the reason why she’s down here visiting my mom just to get away and I said okay and I said what do you mean get get back at them she says well I want to have s** with you and I looked at I said what and she said yeah. Then I asked you I said does my mom know about this and she said well your mom told me that you and her have been fooling around since your father died and I wanted to have some s** with you myself and I said it’s okay and so she just wrote right in front of me and I never thought my aunt this Aunt anyways would do something like this with me and and so I just wrote and she’s just sitting on my bed right in front of me naked and so I started kissing her and started getting it on and I ended up f****** her and coming inside of her and she says we need to keep doing this until you get me pregnant and I should have what and she said yeah I want to get pregnant by you. I said Mom knows about this and she said yes. So me and my aunt pretty much had s** every day twice a day sometime. She was here for almost a whole month and we did it every single day on the day twice sometime and we both are enjoying each other s******* doing a little bit of k**** things now and then and she was really enjoying me shooting my sperm inside of her she said every time that I did to put it so deep inside of her that she would get pregnant. I got pregnancy test done and she was pregnant when she left here going back to her husband and her daughter so he would know that he was doing the same thing that he was with cheating on her with their daughter and pregnant with my baby inside of her I know he didn’t really care for me at all that’s why she wanted me to do it with her and have s** with her she got really good at it and k**** too on some of the things that we used to do I tied her up a few times really enjoyed that cuz I can do anything I wanted to and I did I made it s*** my c*** a lot and then stick it back inside of her when I was done about to come just to make sure we got her pregnant before she left.

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