I never feel like I deserve any praise I’m given. I assume it’s all false. Or, worse, I wonder if it’s true and feel conceited and like a total a******. I know it’s destructive, and I should work on my confidence, but I don’t understand why anyone would willingly spend time with me. I’m a waste of space. Maybe that’s Depression talking, but Depression is a part of me, too. It’s stupid to think I can escape it completely, and dumb to think there’s no basis in my actual thoughts and feelings.

I wish I were a better, stronger person. I wish I deserved compliments, or felt like I did… or even like people actually mean them.

I don’t want to seem like I’m fishing for compliments, so I usually just say thank you. In reality, I want to ask why they think that… and then ask if they’re telling the truth. But even then, I think I’d just assume everyone is lying. It’s not that hard to believe.