Very recently, I’ve started to think that I’m very weird. People always say that you’re not alone in how you feel, and it might just be that I’m bad at explaining things. I recently told someone about how I was feeling, and they didn’t really comprehend it well.
I really like romance. The fluffy sorts of romance that would probably only exist in fanfiction and a perfect world. The idea of falling in love with someone and *being* in love with someone just sounds amazing to me. I’ve always found myself longing for it, but the thing is that I never really feel anything…? I have a lot of friends who have plenty of crushes and have dated plenty of people, and honestly, I’ve always felt a bit jealous. Even though there’s so much drama with their situations that it gives me a headache, I envy how they’re able to be attracted to people.
I could just be an extreme weeaboo because I mean, if it’s a fictional character, I easily am attracted? I just think it’s weird, though. I’ve only ever had a crush on one person, and when I look back, I don’t even really like the person. I had a girlfriend in the past, but I didn’t even like her. She just guilted me into dating her, and it worked. I felt guilty, but I never felt attracted to her. Right now, I technically have a boyfriend, but I’m not even romantically attracted to him either.