Okay so, I’ve never told anyone how I’ve started to feel. I’m 17, and I feel like I’m mentally ill but I think it’s because I want to(it may seem weird but yeah). My sister always kept me away from things because she didn’t wanted me to get hurt but now that I feel so attached to her, she constantly keeps reminding me that my old friends(that are her friends now) are better than me and I know nothing about her. My family and friends, keep telling me that I’m fat. They keep reminding of my insecurities and then expect me to be strong and if I start crying in front of them, they don’t take it seriously. My mother favours my sister more than me. My best friend isn’t there for me all the time. I’ve changed as a person, I don’t want anyone to know the stuff that I go through anymore. I don’t want people to know how I feel and at the same time, I need someone to talk to. The way I feel makes me think that I’m going crazy. Sometimes I feel like I’m bipolar. Sometimes I feel that maybe I’m just overthinking and it’s not what i think it is. My self esteem has lowered down. I don’t feel like going anywhere and I don’t feel like socialising anymore. All I want to do is, is to be left alone.