I dont know where i am heading right now, chasing the rush of flirting with girls has even given me alive, but also losing the sense of myself in the same time. Is this the goal or is this just another illusion that i have just created? I dont know, but the feeling from that can never be better, forgetting anything else, just me and her, having a fun time that most likely be forgotten by the next day. One after another, i lost in the shadow, unable to see anything else, strangely enjoying the moment at the same time. Is this real? Or just me fighting against myself to reach my goal to improve my conversational skill? Or maybe just none of these will lead to nowhere, leading me back to the starting line? Right now, I will just keep sharpen my invisible knife, wielding it to bring me happiness, going toward the seemingly truth of pickup artist.
By Ryan